Being content with the Lord

Hebrews 13:5 NKJV

“Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”’

The Lord said this to Jacob in Genesis 28:15

And to Joshua in Joshua 1:5

And Moses said this to the Isrealites in Deut 31:6-8

God knows the plans He has for each and everyone of us. What your life and outcomes may look like may be different than mine. 

That’s why this verse jumped out at me, mainly “let your conduct be without covetousness and be content with what you have.” It reminds me of myself and how I got to where I am now.

I struggled with wanting a “fairy tale life:” perfect husband, perfect marriage, perfect children, perfect family. I grew up in a Mormon family and this is what every kid was brought up to believe, so I always thought this was God’s purpose for me.

However, when I was 18 years old, my life turned down a different road. I started hanging out with the wrong crowd, and soon turned to alcohol and men. 

Many years had passed and I was still drinking and had been through many failed relationships. I was trying to fill a void, but none of these things ever did it for me.

The older I got, the more I wondered what my life would have been like if I had turned down the road I was hoping to be on and had a family. I hated my life and the choices I had made.

In Feb 2017, something was changing in me. Jesus was making His way into my life and heart. One night, I must have been working on a 6 pack, I got down on my knees and begged Jesus to take away my addiction. A miracle happened that night and I haven’t had a drink since.

I was saved and although the alcohol was gone, I still felt that void, like I needed to be in a relationship. But the more my relationship with the Lord grew, the more this need for a physical relationship started to dwindle. I felt content with the love He was providing me. He had been all that I needed. He was filling that void. 

As a full-time, solo RVer, it can often get lonely, but I know that the Lord has been leading me to the people and places that fill my cup and that He will continue to lead me to who and where I need to be. 

I know that He has been working in my life all along, even in my sinner days. I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me.

I now understand that the Lord had other plans for me and I no longer look at everyone else’s life and think of the mistakes I’ve made or what could have been. For my riches are in Heaven and that “fairy tale life” I was looking for, will be waiting for me when I’m in the arms of Jesus.

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